It’s all started to make sense, everything will make sense eventually.
When life way much more simpler, I used to watched movies a lot, without guilt of course. Breakfast at Tiffany’s, Amélie, Gone with the Wind, Pretty Woman, and a lot more collection of drama-romance-comedy-chick flick movies that I used to watch via dvd every weekend if I had not get any new book yet to read. But again, I have to admit that I wasn’t sure with the real messages that trying to be told by those movies, all I know is how pretty and inspiring the leading actor was and how it gave me such a closer picture about a full-of-love-and-warmth-living-situation that unfortunately was not my life in my younger days. It’s indeed my escapism in order to stay sane back then. Well, now I am almost twenty five and I can get the messages clearly when I once re-watched those AND I love those movies even more. Every fkin time I finally understand what those movies all about, I found myself soliloquy: “Ah.. so it make sense now”.
I used love reading magazine that i am going mad as another escapism to getting away from reality. I have to say, it affects my life or at least how I see and live this life. One of my favorite section was the life style column. I read a lot about how by building a healthy habit will lead you to a more healthy thoughts, positive attitude and happier soul. I have a strong belief on that one, so my fourteen year old self decided to eat healthier (still hard tho) and do exercises regularly. Most of my friends used to mock me about what I am eating or when I told them I had to do my exercises after, “kayak ibu-ibu looooo gaseeruu” or “badan lo tuh udah kecil banget, mau dikecilin gimana lagi, hidup cuma sekali kaleee”. I’ve told them being skinny was never my purposes, even until now. I only want to keep my mind healthy that I could sparks joy and positivity around. Now my friends and I are on our twenty something and they won’t stop telling me that they are finally understand what I always did back then and regret not do it sooner, it make sense now for them.
OK, what I am trying to say is maybe right now your life is sucks, everything is overwhelming and you can’t stop ranting about how unfair life is at the moment but one day, eventually, everything will make sense. You will understand what all this shiz trying to tell you and it will helps you grow. Maybe not today, but tomorrow or day after tomorrow or any time when you’re finally willing to see a bigger picture about your life — you will understand. Life is kinda confusing sometimes but it could be worse, just cherish every moment while it lasts. Sometimes life doesn’t go as we planned and that’s okay. Que sera-sera. Whatever will be, will be. Hold on, tight. Have faith. Everything will make sense eventually,
