Apologies are the most powerful words, but they can’t replace what the person feels. We know what guilt’s like and we also know that the pain may not even be replaced by.

I think I deserve a genuine apology from those who brought harm my way. I believe he is must be aware of the pain that weighed a ton that I carried with me through every day.

“When he apologizes.. it’s actually not for her, but for himself” wait, what?

Here you go

“The point is, because he doesn’t want to hold onto his guilt for too long, that’s why he’s apologizing. Innit?”

I received endless “I’m sorry” without an actual back story, but “I know I hurt you”. That type of conviction deserves to be noticed and reflected. A simple “I’m sorry” doesn’t amount to the trauma I dealt with years after unlearning those patterns of “love” I withdrew myself from. I always told myself, I hold everyone accountable for everything they did to hurt me until they could come forth doing so.

But then this words came across my mind, “God always forgave, so do I”

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“Even though it’s not clearly forgiven, but she still respect him for having the courage to apologize”

“She thinks when he apologized, that means he swallowed his own ego to admit that he was wrong, and she don’t think that everyone else can do that”

So, actually it’s really enough to validate who is really wrong.

The guilt will always there. When you feel guilty, then enjoy it, and yes, atone for your sins with your guilt.

Because what Bio One said is “what makes you more human, with you becoming a human, you will humanize a human”.

That’s why I contemplating the long journey of forgiveness.